Monday, October 17, 2005:
these few days. i've been like in my own world. i have no idea why either. just study, eat, watch tv, use the computer, talk on the phone, sleep. like, life is getting so routine. not that its boring. it just feels like, there's no reason for my existence. i feel small. overlooked. everyone seems to be having some kind of life, and here am i, feeling so dazed. feeling so lost. feeling like there's nothing here for me anymore. there's no meaning in my life. like, when i'm by myself, i just. stone completely. stare into space. dont even know what i'm thinking about. and my mind's a complete b-l-a-n-k. like i've reached nirvana. or something. i dont even trust myself to be alone and do nothing for a minute. its scary you know. and people think i'm angry or pissed or moody because of my blank look. :\ shrugs. i have absolutely no idea why. do i look that scary? i dont even know what i think about.
bio pract tmr. dont even know whether i'm ready. thank goodness that i'm in the third shift. at least i've got time to worry and be scared and cram more stuff. which makes me wonder now why the heck i'm here online blogging.. haiya. this is bad.
better go. ):
The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty Let all the earth rejoice All the earth rejoice He wraps himself in Light, and darkness tries to hide And trembles at His voice Trembles at His voice How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see How great, how great is our God Age to age He stands And time is in His hands Beginning and the end Beginning and the end The Godhead Three in One Father Spirit Son The Lion and the Lamb The Lion and the Lamb Name above all names Worthy of all praise My heart will sing How great is our God How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see How great, how great is our God-How Great Is Our God, Chris Tomlin
a shout of praise.
9:40 PM
